Sometimes I look at the rivals I have and complain, because I know I deserve better enemies.
Sometimes I look at the rivals I have and complain, because I know I deserve better enemies.
―
Atrona Grizel
Social media
normalizes societal indifference, or at the very least prevents it from being
questioned. In the simplest terms, think of someone who is bullied at school
and no one intervenes. People, especially young people who are fond of social
status games, may even blame the person who is being bullied for not speaking
up. What none of them realize is that they accept it as natural that, in that
classroom, no one actually cares about that person at all, because everyone is
busy thinking about their own lives. The teacher dreams of going home and
resting; the students dream of getting out of school to have sex and drink
alcohol. Very few people have their minds truly in the classroom. Yet those who
see the bullied person as a “loser” already accept this indifference as part of
society, because they have never felt desperate enough to pay that level of
attention to someone else. A lonely person is sensitive to others’
indifference, but people like these have become insensitive to it because they
are constantly surrounded by others. Someone who is economically poor
constantly probes other people: “Can I get something from them, would they give
me anything?” and therefore observes them continuously. As a result of these
observations, they realize that no one there would even give them food, because
in reality no one cares about anyone. Others, however, were raised in comfort,
so they do not even attach importance to this, because they have never fallen
into a state of deprivation where they would have to beg others for something,
and therefore they have never made these kinds of observations that would allow
them to see that even those who seem to care about them only care about
themselves.
―
Atrona Grizel
Emotions are not
instructions but signals. If I love something, this is data. If I dislike
something, this is also data, and at worst, noise.
―
Atrona Grizel
There are three
dominant regulation routes under chronic pain. First is external soothing, which
includes substances, compulsions, people, and belief systems. Second is
behavioural discharge, which includes acting out, aggression, self-harm, and
impulsivity. Third is internal containment, which includes cognition,
abstraction, intellectualization, and meaning-making. The first path produces
depressive alcoholics, emotional vampires, and political fanatics; the second
path produces rapists, bombers, and murderers; the third path produces writers,
poets, and philosophers.
―
Atrona Grizel
People who say
that love is irrational by claiming that “beneath human skin there is filth;
there is blood, mucus, and feces” are not wise, but enslaved to biology. The
only thing that makes them call blood, mucus, and feces dirty is that they are
having a biological reaction, not an individual one. Biology makes a person
perceive feces as something that smells bad and tastes bad because it truly is
waste, and if someone were to try to eat it, they could be poisoned. If nature
had instead presented it as something that smelled pleasant and tasted
delicious, the human race would not even exist. This is the whole point: the
only thing that makes dirty things dirty is that biology has willed it so. This
law is what those supposedly lucid people powerlessly obey. Thus, the people
who say that love requires a certain kind of blindness toward bodily filth are
in fact blind themselves, because the only thing that makes them perceive it as
blindness is their own mode of perception. True love transcends genes.
―
Atrona Grizel
To be able to
commit suicide is a luxury.
―
Atrona Grizel
I’m fine with all
kinds of destruction, but not with destroying the destroyer.
―
Atrona Grizel
It is constantly
claimed that society’s rights are being trampled. And in doing so, the
individual is crushed. What, then, is to be said about the individual’s
sovereignty rights that are slipping away? If the individual is to be
disregarded for the “good” of society, then society itself should be abolished.
―
Atrona Grizel
Most people are
too preoccupied with themselves to even be indifferent towards others.
―
Atrona Grizel
If humanity were
to vanish suddenly, nothing of metaphysical value would be lost. On the
contrary, metaphysics itself would finally reclaim the stage. Humanity is a
conspiracy constructed against the abstract, which is the only concrete thing.
―
Atrona Grizel
The less a work
of art reflects the society in which it exists, the more it has been liberated.
To attain aesthetic independence, the artist must know how to purge the culture
of society. And yes, society cannot be art. Only its absence.
―
Atrona Grizel
The more time I
spend outside, the more my head aches, because there are stimuli everywhere. My
mind absorbs everything like a sponge, and since it cannot prevent this, it
constantly scans these inputs in order to maintain at least some control over
how they settle in the mind. This, naturally, leads to exhaustion. Every
movement, even a simple walk, every conversation, even a simple laugh, is
stored in my mind to later be contemplated for hours and transformed into poems
and aphorisms. If I do not do this, I cannot feel at ease, because I leave the
day “unprocessed,” and in doing so I increase the likelihood of being
assimilated into society. I would choose a weary warrior over a baby cushioned
in the comfort of belonging.
―
Atrona Grizel
Rights should not
be things so simple that they are acquired merely by being born, because when
what is called a “right” is reduced to this level of childish ease, the rights
of those who have earned them rather than obtained them from thin air are
violated. If freedom is granted to everyone indiscriminately, then the freedom
of those who have suffered for it is restricted. Not everyone deserves freedom,
and not everyone should. An ignorant and a genius should not possess the same
rights. Yet, as it happens, geniuses are almost always governed by the ignorant
within bureaucracies. The higher the status of the seat, the lower the level of
the mind occupying it. Why do orangutans—whose ignorance is evident even from
their faces, who cannot even manage to pronounce my name—govern the entire
population? For such a sharply segregated intelligent class, since there is
nothing in the external world that represents them, everything they do is
legitimate, because its authority is drawn from their inner world, which is
divine authority.
―
Atrona Grizel
Collectivist
societies have no language for solitude. They cannot define it, because they do
not even know it. In such societies, being asocial does not evoke hermits or
mystics but almost always a computer-addicted autistic person. That is,
solitude is not a choice but a defect, an “inability to be social,” because
sociability itself has become the primary state of reality. If I don’t take
part in the obligatory displays of politeness and happiness outside, people
will of course see it not as a refusal to perform social roles to preserve
authenticity but as incompetence, and they will ask, “Did you play too many
computer games?” not, “Did you read too many books?” State institutions
function in the same way, in fact, because they expect loyalty to the state,
which requires social and cultural adaptation, and if someone feels no such
loyalty, this is considered their fault, and society approves of this judgment.
This is precisely the societal mentality that allows such fascistic
institutions to be regarded as legitimate and to continue existing.
―
Atrona Grizel
I know people who
almost live in the kitchen. They show no reaction even while washing the
dishes, because that is their world. Even waiting in line at the barber drives
me to fury, even though I do not even want to be outside at all, simply because
I do not have the tools or the skill to cut my own hair. And I will not become
an automaton obsessed with housework. They want to turn me into a non-player
character, like in video games. They want me to sit on my couch from morning
till night watching television, then order food from outside and eat it, then
go to work, then come back and do the same thing again. I must not get used to
this. Everything must always feel wrong to me, because if I start to find it
right, then I become like them, and becoming like them means becoming a kitchen
robot myself.
―
Atrona Grizel
Everything that
offers different worlds is legitimate. But a single broad world that gathers
all these different worlds within itself must, because of its sheer size, be
negatively prejudiced against worlds different from itself.
―
Atrona Grizel
In sexuality, the
advantage belongs to women; generally, their entire body is functional. The
man, on the other hand, performs his entire function through a single organ in
his groin. The reason for this is that it is not men but females who give
birth. The man is merely a user of the woman. He is not the flower but the one
who smells the flower; since he is not the flower, he is therefore sexually
worthless. When speaking of vaginal sex or oral sex, I want to point out an
often ignored fact: when these acts are named, the focus is placed on the
woman’s organ, not the man’s, because what is used is not the man but the
woman. A woman enjoys being used, not using, because there is nothing in the
man that she can use anyway. During my adolescence, while experiencing
confusion about my sexual identity, I felt very intense emotions about this
issue, and I could not understand how girls could feel attraction toward the
opposite sex, because I could not find anything pleasurable in the bodies of
boys. As I grew older, however, I realized that what they are attracted to is
not the opposite sex itself anyway, but the opposite sex using them. This
situation may objectify the woman, but she becomes an object precisely because
she is the only side that is sexually valuable. The male, meanwhile, resembles
a filthy miner who rejoices at having found a diamond in a mine, which is the
female.
― Atrona Grizel