Even though I have always been subjected to misunderstanding, disregard, and lovelessness, I have no kind of “proof” that society would accept.

 Even though I have always been subjected to misunderstanding, disregard, and lovelessness, I have no kind of “proof” that society would accept. Nothing physical has happened, and everyone already sees me as the source of all these things—thus they blame me. According to them, if I am misunderstood, it’s because I have not made myself “understandable.” If I am disrespected, it’s because I have “failed to fulfill my duties.” And if I am unloved, it’s because I “carry a heart of stone that knows neither how to love nor be loved.” Those who hold social—though not intellectual—authority will naturally believe the word of a hundred people rather than one, purely by force of number. And so that one person—me—when I express my feelings, will be made to feel as though I invented them myself, that they exist only in my mind. Thus they will label me “delusional” and send me off for “treatment.” It’s like saying—and treating it as though—“The Holocaust was committed by the Jews themselves.”