I questioned what I was absorbing, tested it against my own instincts, and slowly let my perspective harden into something self-made rather than borrowed from mass society.

 I I was too exposed early to sexualized content, celebrity culture, sports fetishism, anime fandom, and endless debates about news and politics. It didn’t just wash over me like “passing weather”; it seeped in, reshaping my desires and even bending how I saw myself. But since I wasn’t deeply tied to a peer group, nor was I fully convinced by what I saw at all, I had the strange mix of isolation—or freedom—to think my way out. I questioned what I was absorbing, tested it against my own instincts, and slowly let my perspective harden into something that was self-made rather than borrowed from mass society, and became its most determined defender.