I imagine my body merging with someone else’s during sexual intercourse… nothing could sicken me more.

 I imagine my body merging with someone else’s during sexual intercourse… nothing could sicken me more. It is the collapse of “I” into “we,” and “me” to “us.” It is the loss of my sovereignity and my independence. It is the erosion of my cosmic vision and my existential freedom. It is a threat to my individual identity and my godlike self. Will they merge with me? Will they swallow, with all of themselves, a creature as carefully estranged as I am?