To be strong and yet not use that strength is the strongest intimidation of all.
To be strong and yet not use that strength is the strongest intimidation of all.
―
Atrona Grizel
People have been
conditioned to preserve their sameness by differentiating those who are unique.
―
Atrona Grizel
The school system
is obviously rotten. By its very nature it has to be. There is no “good school”
because that would be like saying “good hell.” Yet people can’t detach from
careers to which they’ve devoted their entire lives out of loyalty to an empty
belief. Just as I protect my own independence unflinchingly, they try to
protect their reputations stubbornly. I still see teenagers everywhere
seriously debating “whether grades determine intelligence.” In fact, they
themselves are not even responsible for this; they are actually victims.
Because it is their families who imposed such a perspective on them. Since
openly opposing this value is more exhausting than submitting to it, everyone
internalizes it, and when they see this, they think, “Everyone does it like
this, so it must be right,” and thus they reinforce it even more among
themselves. This also gives rise to the type who shuts themselves in their room
and cries when they get low grades.
―
Atrona Grizel
Truth is shaped
by perspective, language, context, power, history, and cognition. Humans do not
uncover truth; they negotiate it, construct it, fight over it, and inherit it
half-rotten. Therefore, truth is not objective; it is not objectivism that
governs truth, but subjectivity. A lie agreed upon by everyone remains a lie,
even if it wears a crown. A minority insight can be true even while being
crushed, ignored, or laughed out of the room. Therefore, truth is not
democratic either; it does not care who you are, how many of you there are, or
how loudly you chant. Reality does not count votes.
―
Atrona Grizel
“Be compatible or
be annihilated:” thus my hymn to annihilation emerged.
―
Atrona Grizel
Y: “Why do you go
to school?”
X: “To drag noise
into myself all day long, from morning till evening, and return just as I
went.”
―
Atrona Grizel
Deep and lofty
things are not uttered, cannot be uttered, in collective places and spaces that
are designed for crowds. The shrill frequency of such places is far too
insufficient for such weight. Reality, for this very reason, is only that which
is private.
―
Atrona Grizel
The one who
deifies themself can alter the common notion of “error,” thus ruling over
reality, and prevent this fortress from being leveled by a single cannon shot.
―
Atrona Grizel
Whenever the
default setting of society—excessive happiness, boundless positivity, and
artificial perfection—fades even slightly, yielding its place to sorrow,
torment, and collapse, then a voice within me whispers: “Now it is your turn.”
―
Atrona Grizel
Imagine a person
who, in order to escape from a world they do not love, chooses to escape from
the self they do love—what do they think in that final moment? That this is not
a “death.” In fact, the usual logic is turned upside down: the person is right
until the very end, while the world is wrong until the very end, and the
absurdity is that, despite this, the person is the one wronged—the one who
suffers punishment for their own rightness. Through self-destruction, the
person does not cry out their own guilt. At this point, self-destruction
appears as a kind of “transcendence.” When leaping from the roof into death,
this person must whisper into the void: “Not to escape myself, but to surpass
this cramped dimension.” It does not matter if, from the outside, it is seen as
nothing more than physical death.
―
Atrona Grizel
There is a whole
generation that, the moment their body aches, instinctively reaches for
painkillers. No one wants to endure pain. No one can. They are so devoid of
artistry that pain registers in their minds only as a trivial disturbance.
―
Atrona Grizel
What truly
destroys the individual is not the East but the West, not authoritarianism but
liberalism. The origin of everything lies, in fact, in the global dogma of
Westernism; it is what poisons childhood, seduces youth, numbs adulthood, and
ultimately seizes a person’s entire life just to exploit it. This manifests
itself in things like excessive connection, excessive expression, and excessive
production. What does this mean? It means that the person’s inner world is
being emptied out for the sake of the capitalist outer world’s materialist
hunger.
―
Atrona Grizel
Those who say,
“Are you ten years old to act so childishly?”—if I were to speak in their
language, they are the ones who forever carry the mind of a ten-year-old. For
remarks about physical age are not reflections of an inner reality, but rather
of social expectations and rules. Those who place such importance on “being a
kid” or “being an adult” are always the ones who have internalized these
expectations and rules, mistaking them for their own thoughts.
―
Atrona Grizel
To become an
adult means to grow accustomed, and therefore to grow blind. The things
children and the young spend their days pondering, adults do not even perceive,
for their perception has long since adapted to the world. The adult mind is an
automaton; following a predictable pattern conditioned to read only what it
already knows, derived from its accumulation of experience. Even its most
radical works and acts are actually mechanical. It is a rust that those newly
arrived in the world do not possess.
―
Atrona Grizel
X is a
“thought-artist;” he rises with existence, lies down with existence, and
monumentalizes nonexistence by celebrating it in his solitude. Then he enters
among people: their worship of money, their hunger for fame, their sexual
fetishisms, their astrological beliefs, their madness for cosmetic injections,
and their social-media polemics. He listens intently, waiting—perhaps something
might emerge that speaks to his inner world. He waits the whole day. And what
he gains from this waiting is nothing but mosquito buzzings. Then he retreats
again to the mountain peak of his solitude. For mosquitoes, after all, cannot
reach the harsh and frigid climates.
―
Atrona Grizel
In the modern
world, among the first questions asked when meeting someone new is “What is
your zodiac sign?” I have never seen anyone respond by wrapping themselves in a
stubborn silence—rather than either stating their sign or still continuing the
same chatter of trend and culture by expressing disbelief in astrology.
―
Atrona Grizel
Cities are
annihilation centers where hermitic—that is, noble—feelings and thoughts are
ground down into dry leaves. Every stone of concrete is the death of a dream,
and every gray silhouette, poisoned with superficial happiness, is the
abandonment of another belief.
―
Atrona Grizel
To be overly
scornful is, in essence, to be overly respectful, for it acknowledges the
existence of the other as a separate living being.
―
Atrona Grizel
To think not of
humanity as a species, but of oneself—to be an individual, belonging to a kind
of which no one else is a member…
―
Atrona Grizel
On the wall of
the room where he hanged himself, right next to an arrow pointing to his
lifeless body, it was written: “No one will be able to read this masterpiece
correctly.” And then, at that moment, the accompanying silence understood: the
artist, in an ancient rage because there was no one, nor had there ever been
anyone, who could grasp his art, had torn it apart and thrown it into the
fireplace. Had it burned? It is uncertain. Perhaps this very act was the exact
art itself.
―
Atrona Grizel
That which is
about to be destroyed destroys everything in a final and absolute way as it
goes. A dying power is always the most destructive one; the Germans were
returning the occupied lands as wastelands to the enemy, and the executions of
prisoners became the norm in the final months of the regime.
―
Atrona Grizel
When the inner
world becomes more real than the outer world, surpassing the practical and the
physical to turn abstract, and thereby cosmic, solipsism is not far at all.
This person’s body is nothing but a kind of capsule designed solely to house
the mind, and the function of this mind is to abandon the body and adopt not
the world, but space itself as its home. Their brain functions not as a flesh
that embraces the external, but as a kind of “advanced technology” that
constantly constructs and deconstructs reality. When “I” is not even in the
world, or even in the “existence” itself, how could what is there ever reach
them, appearing real?
― Atrona Grizel