Sitting for hours staring at the ceiling is more beneficial than listening to the advice of an “enlightener.”
Sitting for hours staring at the ceiling is more beneficial than listening to the advice of an “enlightener.”
―
Atrona Grizel
To understand how
vain and pretentious young people are at their core when they passionately
defend political movements and ideologies, it is enough just to look at their
faces.
― Atrona Grizel
Those who believe they are stupid simply because they get low grades are, in fact, proof of a conditioning rather than mere stupidity: the identification of intelligence with school performance. Where does this come from at its core? Because no mainstream school possesses any tool or method capable of detecting and revealing true intelligence, only grades remain as a visible metric, and students, having nothing else to compare themselves with, naturally equate them with intellect. If you offer nothing but bananas to monkeys, they will naturally assume that bananas are the only fruit that exists. If society were governed not by “productivity” and “compliance” but by genuine intelligence, the control of the country would have to be in my hands—and I would use it solely to annihilate the society entirely.
―
Atrona Grizel
“If a person looks
at themself from the outside, they realize that they are not necessary in an
existential sense,” people say. For they think that this impression that
emerges from the outside is objective. Yet there is no objectivity in
existence. The only thing that makes this external perspective seem
“legitimate” or “clearer” is already an inner perspective itself. A person sees
it that way simply because they are inclined to see it that way. Otherwise,
there is no such thing as an “external point of view.” They forget that even
what they call the “outside” is necessarily their own inside.
―
Atrona Grizel
As a child, I
used to embrace the whole world, and I would feel a deep shame—of which I told
no one—that such a place even existed. Like those classical melancholic types
lacking any distinctive quality, I too would pity the sufferers, take upon
myself the traits of people that I regarded as flaws, and consider myself
guilty for not having changed this spectacle. Because my roots were still bound
to the earth. Even though I was dissatisfied to the point of alienation, I
still belonged to the realm of humanity. For I knew no other world than the
physical one. But later I created my own world, and internalized it by
exchanging it with the external one. The place to which I belong—if such a
place exists—became henceforth an abstract world. That is why dreamer minds are
never “healed” or never “heal,” because they have transcended the general realm
from which such concepts arise.
―
Atrona Grizel
No one truly asks
the question “why?” In the earliest stages of this question, people inevitably
cling to religion and ideologies, out of the weakness and fear of needing to
find an answer. And this prevents them from digging further beneath this
question—or rather, from confronting it directly and nakedly—instead of
answering it by putting full stops after it. Societies stand only thanks to the
followers of those tools that have made it their principle to try to fill this
devouring, all-consuming void of a question.
―
Atrona Grizel
In religious and
social norms, there is only one form of loyalty: loyalty to others. Whoever
does not practice this is automatically considered “bad.” The individual
themself is never deeply valued by any ideology—or, at the very least, when
compared to systems, they are never the central point. Unsurprisingly, people
see me as disloyal, because I am loyal only to myself.
―
Atrona Grizel
I do not know how
to form relationships with humans. Because I know how to live without human
relationships.
―
Atrona Grizel
I do not
understand why people blame themselves instead of the world, and how this is reinforced
by spreading in the form of social propaganda mottos such as “shifting blame
outward is always the easy way out.” In reality there is no “guilt,” and even
if there were, it would always belong to everything that is not the person
themself, because existentially a person is in a state of complete
powerlessness and therefore irresponsibility. Today, the easy thing is for the
person, depicted as being expelled from heaven, to blame themselves, while the
difficult thing requiring courage is to blame the society depicted as heaven.
However, hell never openly cries out that it is hell.
―
Atrona Grizel
People set out to
“correct” what is “wrong.” Yet what gives those things their “wrongness” is not
some objective or universal truth but rather a personal and changeable
perspective; and this act itself is nothing more than an automatic reflex,
given without thought, by mechanized humans who are puppets of their instinct
to “escape pain.”
―
Atrona Grizel
To rebel is not
to rise up but to submit, not to defy but to surrender.
―
Atrona Grizel
The extremities
of youth come from their “testing” of the world. For they are only just
beginning to see it and want to uncover how it works. If they are fanatical, it
is because they have not yet learned that everything lacks foundation; if they
are romantic, it is because their belief in love has not yet burned out; and
even their rebellion is still more an external performance than an inner
dissatisfaction. For now. Because these things mostly change with time. The
inexperience of the young and their lack of familiarity with life make them
resolute—but in the sense of a fool’s fixed stability.
―
Atrona Grizel
I love only those
writers who write everything by writing nothing at all.
―
Atrona Grizel
Modern young
people are slaves in the guise of kings who define—they need to name
everything, because the void they keep fleeing frightens them—themselves
through human relationships; therefore, if all their friends were removed, they
would be ready to go mad by instantly becoming a nothing.
―
Atrona Grizel
I am not angry at
humans—I feel sorry for them. I don’t hate humanity; I pity it.
―
Atrona Grizel
I think that
physical solitude, coupled with music I can play as much as I want whenever I
desire, coupled with the fact that my imagination is always with me, is enough
for me to endure everything and everyone.
―
Atrona Grizel
People say school
turns students into robots, but few probe the depths of how. How does this
robotization occur? Everything taught in fact tells a person “how and in what
manner to think.” It is as if the kind of worldview one will have is determined
from the outside. Yet this never happens directly. There is no open
indoctrination by the institution itself; people merely, and unconsciously,
reinforce each other’s blindness. Take, for example, the universal value
instilled in teenagers: “making the world a better place.” This value appears
in the teacher’s speech and views, and thus the teacher—whether unwittingly or
deliberately—passes on their own propaganda. Among students who have
internalized it, the value is transmitted in their conversations. They repeat
it until it feels like “common sense.” In this way, it is reinforced by
everyone and becomes the norm. The label “normal” arises only from here and has
nothing to do with being “good.” To be normative means to spread this value and
encourage its spread, simply because it has been adopted by the majority. Its
truth cannot be questioned, for that would count as “abnormality,” and usually
the “guidance counselors” step in to “correct” it—transmitting the propaganda
once again and presenting it as a natural reality of life. Those who criticize
the normalized value become the targets of criticism themselves, for everyone
repeats the same thing so many times that what they take for freedom actually
turns into dogma. Consequently, this value is passed down through generations
like a tradition. The result is, more often than not, homogenous generations
who equate career with “success,” and who, when they “fail” at it, come to hate
themselves—because, indirectly, it was always intended to be so.
―
Atrona Grizel
Those who are
condemned for certain traits they possess are only those who do not—or
cannot—conceal them. Someone is unloved not because they are cruel, but because
they are seen as cruel. For even if they were cruel deep down, they could
easily present themselves to the world as “good” and thus, have everyone chase
after them. Look at the serial killers that are “experts” in their professions:
you’ll see how handsome, charismatic, and polite they are, and you’ll see
nothing else, because they show nothing else.
― Atrona Grizel