Optimism is not the cure for pessimism; it is its poison.
Optimism is not the cure for pessimism; it is its poison.
―
Atrona Grizel
I tried every
possible way to free myself from my native language, because for me it has
become synonymous with vulgarity, noise, and bigotry. It has reached a point
where anything I read or even hear in that language triggers an internal
vigilance, as if I’m bracing for a threat. English became a refuge from a
language that represents all those unchangeable people in that degenerate
society. Then I realized this: the language is etched into my neurons. Just as
nationalism is instilled from childhood, a native language shapes a person’s
entire way of seeing the world. A person feels foreign to other languages, and
this binds them to their own, which serves states well because it creates
citizens who will serve them. I wish there were a single world language, but if
humanity didn’t have to use any language at all, I wouldn’t even want language
to exist, because language itself represents negativity for me.
―
Atrona Grizel
The positions of
the planets do not determine my personality; my position determines the personality
of the planets.
―
Atrona Grizel
If I go to a
psychologist or psychiatrist, what happens? The answer is simple: they will try
to change me, to pull me back into society. Everything I say will be recorded
as a symptom by minds whose bureaucratic training forces them into that
“professional approach,” and because they lack creative thought, they simply
absorb whatever their official careers have handed them without producing
anything new, since the only thing they care about is their paycheck. Every
attempt they make to change me will backfire, because nothing they say will
affect me until they understand that the flaw is not in me, because there is
not even a “flaw” to begin with. I have seen so much, yet I have so little
evidence, and this separates me from people permanently, because people always
demand “documentation,” and without it you cannot communicate with them. Even
if you try, you become “delusional,” meaning the blame is turned on you. There
is no one who will listen to me, and the truth is that the only way I might
create such a possibility is by paying someone, and even then they will not
understand.
―
Atrona Grizel
Growing up in
emotional security blinds a person to the corruption of society, because that
person has been loved by society, or at the very least has found love within
it, and therefore has not developed a harsh attitude toward it. Even when
exposed to ignorance, they criticize it in a humane and hopeful way, meaning
they still speak in the language of society. Negativity opens a person’s eyes
and causes pain, while positivity merely intoxicates and feels pleasant.
Someone who has not been exposed to negativity, or if they have, they
experienced it while accompanied by others from society, has never been forced
to sharpen their views like one sharpens a blade. A feral intelligence, because
of its outsider nature, fuels itself. The requirement for bringing the inner
world onto the stage is simple: solitude must be the only plausible reality. In
such a situation, the hermit’s intellect branches out and grows, out of
necessity, as its only means of survival, rather than being suppressed as it
would be in social environments. Because of this, any sense of social belonging
is buried like a corpse within solitary geniuses.
―
Atrona Grizel
A teacher is
essentially an “assimilator,” because teaching requires the student’s
education, and education means reducing and forcing them into molds, the molds
of others. Prophecy is different because it does not even require teaching
anything; it is merely being a guide, if at all, and guidance is distinct from
instruction.
―
Atrona Grizel
Someone whose job
is to look after children all day in a daycare—how do they endure all that
noise? And they probably can’t wear headphones or magically make themselves
deaf, so they constantly absorb that racket. This could even be my own
unofficial eternal profession, but it can’t be said that I get a “salary,” and
the noise I endure doesn’t come from little kids screaming but from the grunts
of big bodies.
―
Atrona Grizel
Most people
reproduce not because they sincerely want to, but because they cannot endure
the expectations and pressure placed upon them. The primary reason is to
satisfy a state and a society that is hungry for babies, and in order to make
this easier, they try to artificially create a desire in themselves in that
direction. Everywhere they are exposed to slogans such as “people, by their
nature, want to be parents,” and when this is combined with the fact that
everyone thinks in this direction, or rather that they have a habit of
defending this point of view because they do not possess a consciousness that
truly thinks, their minds normalize and internalize it, and in this way they
come to adopt this view. The result of this parenthood lacking in depth may be
a key point in Generation Z itself, because according to my observations, many
of them come from inadequate families, and one of the factors that makes them
dependent on social media and peer influence is this emotional absence of
family. Yet the value of starting a family is also internalized by them, and
thus, when the time comes, they too throw children into the world, and in this
way this cycle of inadequate families is maintained.
―
Atrona Grizel
Someone who has
not seen a thing doesn’t have to not know it. If I have never formed a close
relationship with my family, this does not automatically mean that I cannot
form a family of my own. Those who are dependent on and bound to experience
take refuge in this excuse, and naturally, if they do not experience anything
concrete, then in their eyes they have experienced nothing. But abstract minds
can establish hundreds of families in their minds, and all they have to do is
know how to pour this outward for a single, particular family.
―
Atrona Grizel
There are two
types of self-awareness: one that thinks, “How do I look?” and “What do they
think of me?” and another that thinks, “What am I?” and “Is identity even
real?”
―
Atrona Grizel
In society, the
acceptance of superficiality leads to the rejection of depth, because what
people want are opiates that will numb them, not cold water that will shake
them awake.
―
Atrona Grizel
Those who care
about whether something is “shameful” are not polite; they have simply grown up
in comfort, or at least within society. Because, for example, there is nothing
wrong with not giving up one’s seat to an elderly person, since no one actually
cares about one another anyway, and acting as if they do is hypocrisy. If that
elderly person opens their mouth and complains about it, they do not prove that
they are “enlightened”; they only prove that they are a baby, because the more
a person suffers, the less they demand. If, despite this action, they are in
fact someone who has suffered deeply, then this is even sadder, because it
means they still believe in such hollow values; that is, perhaps they have
spent their whole life within the mentality of society, or at least they have
started to believe again in things they previously did not believe in, meaning
that in some way they have certainly evaluated people and humanity positively.
But I do not even give way to the elderly, and this causes no shame in me. I
throw trash on the ground, and this causes no self-doubt within me. Or I make
people wait, and when they leave in response, I do not even feel sad, because
my value will not be determined by such ridiculous human “courtesies” that
cannot even reach me.
― Atrona Grizel