My adaptation is the improbability of adaptation itself.
My adaptation is the improbability of adaptation itself.
―
Atrona Grizel
The expression “I
will always be alone” appears, from the perspective of societal norms, as
negative to a mind that has been automated—interpreted as “I am not worthy of
anything.” Because the mind perceives it this way, the response it produces is
equally predetermined and predictable: “If you keep being like this, you will
always be alone.” They respond reflexively, like machines: “Don’t be like this,
or you’ll stay alone.” This is far from an innocent reply. Within its narrow
meaning, it communicates only this: “You should be ashamed of being alone.”
Why? Because such a homogenized mind equates solitude with failure. It equates
aloneness, instantly, with wrongness, even evil. To them, being alone is a
defect to be corrected. Yet to choose aloneness is to desecrate the idols of
partnership, marriage, and tribe. It is to say, “I do not seek completion from
you.” Hence, society’s response comes swiftly, without contemplation: “Don’t
say that. You’ll never find anyone if you think like this.” But what is this
truly saying? It reveals an intense fear: “You are threatening the myth I live
by. If you are whole without us, then what are we? Hollow?” The one who is
alone knows this—and still chooses silence. Because perhaps, when that person
said, “I will always be alone,” they were not lamenting it; they were simply
claiming it. What they truly meant was liberation—from the endless noise of
human beings who diminish the soul’s reality.
―
Atrona Grizel
In the past, many
people lived on the edge of hunger. Under the pressure of survival, they clung
to life, worked exhausting hours for little more than a sustaining meal, and
took to the streets in search of work to provide for their children, often with
no one to aid them. This condition did not define everyone, of course, but it
shaped the moral atmosphere of the age. By contrast, life today is relatively
comfortable. Even prisoners now speak the language of human rights. In earlier
times, such claims would have been met with ridicule: what rights could a
prisoner have? Liberalism has altered this perception. This is not necessarily
a good thing, because humanity is becoming spiritually defenseless against
pain, as sources of suffering are systematically eliminated. I sense that even
the most ordinary person of the past possessed a nobility rare today, and this
sense is not mistaken. People of earlier ages knew how to suffer.
―
Atrona Grizel
The reason for
lovelessness is often not the absence of love, but its poor quality. Most of
the time, if the words “I love you” and an accompanying embrace could solve
everything, then a soul would never feel lonely. But it does. Because love is
not something expressed through words or actions; it is spiritual. This is the
truest form of love, and precisely for that reason, it is so rare and
extraordinary.
―
Atrona Grizel
Society instills
two principal things in a person: guilt and shame. In the first, one may see
oneself as “wrong” for having done something “unfair”; in the second, one asks,
“What will they think of me if I wear this?” and thus dresses as though only
for others. This normative influence leads to social conditioning, and social
conditioning leads to conformity. It’s as if there is a “happiness race”: the
unhappy, drowning in anger over this “shameful failure,” complain that their
“brain doesn’t work right,” while the happy, celebrating this “superior
achievement,” flaunt their socially rewarded status that stems purely from
their conformism. And so, in the public face of society, everyone appears so
good, so attractive, so happy, and ultimately so perfect—to the unseeing eye.
This becomes the source of an internalized self-doubt eventually leading to
self-hatred, for the ordinary person, unable to perceive the enduring hell
beneath this artificial paradise, automatically concludes, “If I cannot blend
in with them, there must be something wrong with me,” for the deceptive face of
the society they admire is unconsciously accepted as the true and the real. Yet
the one who perceives all this and refuses to conform, when ignored, thinks
first: “I am alone—therefore I must be awake.” Even if seeing what others do
not see appears as a kind of “madness” to the self-dissatisfied person who is a
jester of society, in their own eyes it is no illusion but prophecy. The
concept of “scandal” is nothing more than the tearing of the deceptive public
face of the “veil of greatness.” And for this person, society itself is a
scandal.
―
Atrona Grizel
To wrap oneself
in cipher and mystery is not always about covering up superficiality;
sometimes, it’s simply about enjoying the act of confusing the other person’s
mind.
―
Atrona Grizel
When the eyes
close, another eye opens in that darkness.
―
Atrona Grizel
Who am I writing
for? For humans that do not yet exist, and perhaps never will. I write for no
one.
―
Atrona Grizel
The problem, if
there is one, is never about the person but always about the world.
―
Atrona Grizel
In actual
dystopias, the artistic and aesthetic form of dystopia does not exist.
―
Atrona Grizel
If a person
expresses who they are rather than who they are not, they will have limited
themselves.
―
Atrona Grizel
Not thought, not
imagination, not consciousness. The only thing that can prove one’s existence
is pain and suffering.
―
Atrona Grizel
To ask is always
more valuable than to answer. I want all questions to fly around in the air,
closed to all answers forever.
―
Atrona Grizel
The antidote to
censorship is metaphor.
―
Atrona Grizel
I have never
searched for a “creator.” I never cared to find one either. I have never
believed in a figure like an all-powerful deity at any point—not even for a
single second in my entire life. This is not out of hatred or disgust, nor even
out of indifference, but because of a profound irrelevance. I do not reject
religions—they are already ontologically nonexistent. It’s more that I experience
a lack of interest, rather than a lack of belief, in the existence of God or
gods. It plays such a small part in my world that I sometimes forget people
believe in and even worship these things. I can have nothing to do with them,
except to continually overthrow them and eternally install myself upon their
thrones, to be my own God. Or, more correctly, to dismantle all thrones and
execute all gods…
―
Atrona Grizel
I don’t live
memories; I invent them, as long as it is no longer possible for them to be experienced.
―
Atrona Grizel
There is only one
life out there, and whether it is mine or not remains uncertain. Inside me,
however, I have lived—and am still living—thousands…
―
Atrona Grizel
Whenever I get
lost in suffocation, I find myself stuck to the world as if sinking into a
swamp, and by recalling the infinite void that begins where the sky ends, I
soothe myself with the comfort of a permanent transience until my next phase of
madness.
―
Atrona Grizel
During
conversation, those who say, “Don’t get into philosophy now,” see philosophy
not as the essence of self and an inseparable part of life, but merely as an
academic field like mathematics or physics.
―
Atrona Grizel
In contemporary
society, what commands respect is no longer a “clean” past, but a “dirty” one,
for it signifies “courage” and “self-assurance” in the eyes of ordinary people.
A typical youth today fears not acquiring bad habits, but “failing” to acquire
them. And rather than concealing their stains, they flaunt them—since
perception itself has been inverted by the corruption of society by modern
Western elements: money, lust, fame, and arrogance. The single youth culture,
of which they are extensions, commands them to pursue and even worship these.
And because they lack the capacity to stand alone, they prefer submission to
opposition—though they would not oppose anyway, for they do not even perceive
anything that needs to be opposed, their minds having normalized this culture.
―
Atrona Grizel
To know is not to
know.
― Atrona Grizel