Evil committed by free will is nobler than good done by imitating others.
Evil committed by free will is nobler than good done by imitating others.
―
Atrona Grizel
Genius reveals
itself not in mathematics but in art. Anyone with a strong memory and good
rote-learning ability can turn mathematics into an area of expertise, but art
demands more than that: innovation. Mathematics explains; art explains why
something is explained, or in what manner it is explained. Mathematics is
objective and rests on proof, whereas art rests on discarding all possible
“proofs,” refusing to worship the external universe, and instead constructing a
private inner universe and aestheticizing it. You cannot truly “analyze” a poem
or produce a “thesis” on a painting, because what a mathematical or scientific
mind will see in a poem are syllable counts or sentence ratios, and in a
painting the placement of emphases or the structural prototype of the depicted
space. In other words, they will see neither the poem nor the painting. Because
a mathematician’s mind cannot accommodate this, which is why creativity often
conflicts with mathematics: mathematics itself means rules, and where rules
dominate, there is neither thought nor feeling but memorization and repetition.
This is what it means to possess a scientific mind: an obsession with
“evidence” and an inability to function without systems. Science is spiritually
barren because it does not step outside space and context, because it accepts
only these; mathematics is included in this barrenness. Art, by contrast,
exists to turn everything upside down, and so, it cannot be scientific.
―
Atrona Grizel
What is often
called “scientific philosophy” treats thinking as something that must be
systematized, stabilized, and made administrable. Systematic philosophies tend
to share this structural impulse. In such frameworks, what emerges is
frequently not philosophy itself but doctrines that are easily transmitted,
taught, and enforced within institutions. Because these philosophies are
usually preoccupied with society as an object to be organized or explained,
they often end up impoverished in terms of genuine thought. Nietzsche, whose
philosophy is intentionally chaotic, still carries a pedagogical and prophetic
style and is therefore naive in a certain sense, because he continues to speak
toward humanity, to imagine “students,” and to remain preoccupied with
“disciples,” even though the non-systemic depth is undeniably there. By
contrast, “school fetishists” such as Kant and Hegel, whose philosophies rest
on rigid theoretical foundations, function like machines, and machines can only
generate noise. In my own thinking, I deliberately allow contradictions and break
ideas into fragments, because I do not want a closed totality to form. None of
my thoughts are directed toward societal institutions, and therefore they are
not intended for public use. If they were, they would risk becoming instruments
of coercion, leading to the destruction of societies through “elitist genocide”
and turning remaining individuals into mutually alien, closed universes.
―
Atrona Grizel
Teenagers’
interest in philosophy is, at its core, about forming connections with others.
It is an apparatus, nothing more. At best, they express ideas in order to
appear deep and to sell that supposed depth socially, turning it into
popularity, because they do not yet possess individual thought. What they have
instead are elevated hormones and impulses, animals seeking peer approval. And
as long as hormones and impulses dominate, what exists is not thought but the
advertisement of thought. Their encounter with philosophy does not happen
quietly through solitary reading, but usually by watching nihilism debates on
the internet, because what they have is not even a serious interest. For a
young person, everything except connection is secondary, and naturally they can
change their identities like mixing a soup, constantly experimenting with new
“styles of thought.” This shows that what they are doing is thinking for the
outside world, which is to say, not thinking at all.
―
Atrona Grizel
Granting people
who understand nothing about thought the right to complain about thoughts, in
other words allowing those who do not think to interfere with those who do, for
example by censoring ideas expressed by a thinking person on the grounds that
they are “too dark” in the eyes of non-thinkers, will always result in the
suspension of thought. Not everyone should have the right to express thoughts,
because not everyone actually possesses thoughts; masses only have reactive
opinions.
―
Atrona Grizel
It is hardly possible for someone outside of culture to be understood by a
psychologist, because the psychologist, by the very nature of the profession,
must be social and therefore almost always exists within culture. Even when
facing someone outside society, the psychologist will continue to perceive them
through terms that belong to society. If the psychologist were themselves outside
of culture, they would not even be a psychologist. This means that there is no
such “social service” available for chronically alienated souls who carry the
noise and superficiality of society on them all day long. They will simply be
alone. The only thing they can do is to change the definition of solitude.
―
Atrona Grizel
My indifference
to other people’s thoughts is not innate; it comes from having once cared about
them far too much and having paid the price for it. And the truth is that I am
still not inwardly indifferent. Someone who does not care about society does
not write hundreds of pages about it.
―
Atrona Grizel
The only respect
I can have for my classmates is that, at most, we are inmates of the same
prison. I have escaped this prison intellectually, but they choose to numb
themselves and try to force me into being physically imprisoned like them. I do
not comply, of course, but the cost is carrying the fatigue of a warrior:
weekdays are the battlefield, and weekends are a temporary rest granted only to
return to that battlefield. All of this ultimately stems from the fact that the
building itself is a sensory prison. At school, after “exams are coming,” the
second most frequently heard sentence was always “I’m bored,” because there is
truly nothing enjoyable there. As a result, they are forced to manufacture
entertainment just to endure it: throwing erasers, popping bottles, flying
paper airplanes, and even fights, all merely to add a trace of pleasure to that
grayness. Stuffing young people into such a confined space and expecting them
to sit quietly there all day is psychological torture.
―
Atrona Grizel
Religions, myths,
and ideologies all fear darkness, because darkness reminds them of their true
face. That is why they declare themselves “knights of light”: light is useful
to them. The easiest and most reliable way to deceive ordinary people is simply
to promise them eternal happiness, and many will genuinely believe this lie if
it is presented well, because the ordinary person lacks the capacity to think
independently. Yet behind everything that openly laughs and shines, one should
look for cunning and deceit. At best, these are ornaments; at worst, traps. In
any case, they are not what they claim to be. They are masks. Solemnity and severity
do not arise from excess; they carry a tension that restrains excess without
eliminating it: neither fully bright nor fully dark, but a light that feels
strangely “dark,” and a darkness that intuitively carries a magical and
mystical atmosphere. This is aesthetic liminality, and the deepest art is
always found at thresholds, never in questions or answers alone.
―
Atrona Grizel
The videos people watch resemble the cartoon programs families put on for babies to keep them entertained: food-stuffing contests, salad-eating “battles,” “prank” videos, reaction faces, slime cutting, staged “generosity” giveaways, looping dances, lip-syncing, outfit styles, exaggerated “life hacks,” the “battle” between “masculine energy” and “feminine energy,” and street “interviews” filled with scripted stupidity. Humanity is evolutionarily regressing toward apedom. Young people’s identities are entirely in the hands of those big-shot “influencers” and trend-setters, because the only thing young people clearly care about is peer approval—and that means being willing to risk everything to be “popular.” The shortest path to this is to copy, word for word, the speech patterns and ways of thinking of people who are already famous, and to present this imitation to others almost as if it were a badge of belonging to a tribal clan. Even those who govern the country do not realize the state the country is in, because they see nothing wrong: they have never seen any other kind of youth. Throughout history, the only youth they have known has been this foolish and imbecilic one, and they do not even know that something beyond it is possible. Consequently, when they interact with young people, they believe they are engaging with real “youth” rather than with machines or animals; and, on top of that, under the pretext of “learning cultural differences and embracing generational differences,” they adopt the same slang and artificial, manufactured intonations used by the young, merely to appear more “approachable” to them. And if I were to say these things to them, they would claim that I am the childish one, because membership in the world they inhabit requires it; questioning is deemed “childish,” while they—the so-called “tough guys”—supposedly have their own “deep troubles.” This is a society that tries to shame me for questioning, because everything becomes a subject of humor and, as a result, nothing is taken seriously. Everyone is laughing. Laughter everywhere. All the time. Such a noble emotion should never have been cheapened this way. In a world like this, you cannot encourage thought. There is only one thing deep thinkers who refuse to trade clarity for comfort gain: social isolation. Endurance without any tangible reward. And… this is precisely why it is beautiful.
―
Atrona Grizel
Social media
shapes language in that way, and societies are so dependent on it and its
trends that the word “autistic” ceases to be perceived as discriminatory or
disrespectful and instead becomes a casually used term meant to be “funny,”
treated as an ordinary joke.
―
Atrona Grizel
I have seen
weather that was excessively windy, and in such conditions I found myself
gaining another ally, like rain and snow, that disrupts the human system. In
this kind of weather, even vehicles sway, and some can overturn or be hurled
aside. Humans, meanwhile, struggle to walk, trying to resist nature. If a
tornado were to form and pull those tiny silhouettes into itself and swallow
them, I would laugh hard while watching from where I stood. That tornado would
understand my laughter. Only we would understand it.
― Atrona Grizel